Weary? Find Rest... Guest Blogger: Stephanie

Last night was a night of conviction and relief! I knew that I was
supposed to be there when the topic of the night was "God's Answer for
Weariness"!!!!!!!!!!! Man just the title had me sold!! Where do I sign
up?!!!
I love how God will correct His children or show them things that they
need to work on, because although Joyce was very direct and nailed the
point home several times times last night, the Holy Spirit was
speaking to me gently gave me Hope and started to fill me with Joy.
Weariness means that you have no freshness, no tolerance, no patience,
no joy..your attitude sucks. All of those things are things that I
have been feeling since I've started school. And even before school
being a Single Mom. One of the points she made was, "Life doesn't make
us weary its the way WE APPROACH life. It's our ATTITUDE." We become
weary when we try to do it on our own. I sat there and wanted to ball
my eyes out. I was mad at myself for letting Satan have my attitude.
For letting him have a foothold. In Daniel 7:25 its says that Satan
seeks to make us weary!! I didnt' know that but it makes perfect
sense. When I get weary I become miserable in all areas. I just want
to give up and thats exactly what Satan wants us to do. Give up. Well
bucko (Satan) you are NOT going to steal my joy or my days on this
earth!!!! This I was forgiven for not being a good steward of my time
and for allowing myself to be agitated and have a bad attitude. From
today on with the help of our Lord my soul is going to be on
vacation ;) I will do everything that I can do and than sit back and
be on vacation waiting with expectancy knowing that God is going to
come through!!!!!!!! I will take up His yoke in EVERYTHING!!

Side note:
Proverbs 15:15 "All the days of desponding and afflicted are made by
evil by anxious thoughts and forebodings."
Desponding means- someone that is all down and depressed from the
afflictions in their lives
Forebodings means- Expecting something bad to happen before it even
happens!!!

Our expectations are part of our Faith!!!! Wait with ENTHUSIASTIC
EXPECTANCY!!!!!!!!

Rest in Him: Guest Blogger: Stephanie

Job 39:11
"He's hugely strong, yes, but could you trust him, would you dare turn the job over to him?" In this new season that I am entering I am finding out that it is very exhausting and demanding. There really isn't a thing called "rest" in my week. Well not the rest that most people consider rest. With my M/W
nights spent at school and Tuesday cell, my nights are pretty jammed
pack. Midnight is becoming a very common hour to me now. Last night
was the first night my daughter really has seen me all week and I was
sooo tired that the attention I was giving her I know isn't what she
wanted or needed at that time. Soo much is going on that my brain
never wants to shut down.

The fear of not being a good student is creeping in...and the fear of
that Cali is thinking that I am rejecting her because Mommy is always
at work and school. I told her the other day that the reason why Mommy
is going to school is because I am becoming a teacher. And she smiled
at me and said, "I want to hold the stick Mommy and I'll point to the
numbers and you say them out loud." It was the cutest thing...she went
on saying who was going to be in our class and sit in the desks. As I
listen to her say all of this, I wish she could REALLY know why Mommy
is going to school and works at a good job...I want the best for Cali
and I want to be a good role model that she can look up to and say
someday, "Hey my Mom did this, so can I." or "Thank you Mom for
keeping me when you knew you were going to be a Single parent." As I
sit in my classes at night wishing I could be home with her I look at
my phone with a pic of her on it and I have to remind myself that I am
doing this for not only my future but for hers too. So many thoughts
race through my mind if I'm really doing the right thing. It's soo
easy to give up and say I can't do school. But like the verse says,
"Do you dare to turn the job over to HIM? Do you trust HIM??" Do I
trust God in this season?? Am I putting limitations on what God is
capable of doing??

Oh Lord please help me rely on your strength and not my own. Teach me
how to be excellent in this new season. I break off all these fears in
Jesus name. I am NEW in you!! I am an Excellent student, worker,
leader and Mother! Jesus protect Cali in this season and help me think
of creative "special" dates to have with her, so she knows that she is
my pride and joy always. I cast my burdens on you Lord and leave them
at your feet Jesus. You are bigger than this season Lord!!! Teach me
what you want me to learn through all of this Lord. Help me not to
complain. Give me strength when I am weary Lord. I love you Lord!!!

Holy Spirit Boot Camp: Guest Blogger: Stephanie

Good Morning Ladies!! What a Beautiful chilly day it is!!!

Hebrews 12:7-11
As you endure this divine discipline, remember that God is treating you as his own children. Who ever heard of a child who is never
disciplined by its father? If God doesn't discipline you as he does all of his children, it means that you are illegitimate and are not really his children at all. Since we respected our earthly fathers who disciplined us, shouldn't we submit even more to the discipline of the
Father of our spirits, and live forever? For our earthly fathers
disciplined us for a few years, doing the best they knew how. But God's discipline is always good for us, so that we might share in his holiness. No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it's painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way.

For the past 6 months God has been doing a Mighty work in me.
Building character and changing my heart. Ripping out all the ugly and
replacing it with beauty and joy. I can honestly say that I thought
God was never going to change the ugly crippled ungrateful person I
was. But the passage up above is exactly what I had to go through
FIRST!! I had to SUBMIT myself to the King Lord Jesus.
And only then could He make me into the person He designed me to be.
Was it painful..Heck YES....did it suck at times...YEP...and No it wasn't
enjoyable to have to die to certain things that have been birthed in
my heart for 23 years!!
But I made a choice. My choice was to fully give my life to God. I didn't care what I had to do. I didn't care what it meant for me and my life. I would give up EVERYTHING in my life just to have Jesus in my life, because without Him my life is NOTHING.
I want to encourage any of you ladies that might be going through a
rough patch in life or might be giving up something in order to live
in complete FREEDOM in the Kingdom. DON"T GIVE UP!!!!! Please don't!!
The freedom in my heart and the joy of Christ in me is overwhelming!
It was worth every tear and prayer. Who doesn't want a peaceful
harvest??? It wont just be handed to you. You have to work for it!!! A sacrifice.
But sooooooo worth it ladies! I hope this gives Hope to
someone!!!

Love you all very much!!!

A daughter of the Most High